13th Newsletter

A chocolate cake and 출석체크(Attendance check again)

Author

Jong Hee Kim
May 21, 2024

Hi there

This is your A.thentic Jong Hee. 

And this is my 13th Newsletter for you.

How are you? How was your weekend?

It passed so fast, didn’t it? Time flies so quickly.

How is the weather there now? Is it the middle of spring like here, or is it the opposite season?

This weekend, I went to a huge food place (pizza and dessert) near my town in Busan. It was a pretty big restaurant. There is one building for the pizza place, and two buildings for desserts and tea/coffee, with 2nd and 3rd floors. I’ve never seen such a large food restaurant in Korea before.😶

(All these buildings are one restaurant)

I had a chocolate pie, and, God, it was sooo great. As I said before, I like dark chocolate. It was dark and sticky, which I like for the texture.

The coffee was also good; they make coffee by dripping, not Americano. I love coffee made by dripping but don’t like Americano that much; Americano is made by adding hot water to an espresso shot, as you know. In my opinion, it’s hard to make good coffee by mixing it with hot water. I’d rather have espresso shots.☕️

While eating that chocolate pie with coffee and watching the ocean from my seat, I was thinking that being beautiful is almost like being sad. When I was eating the chocolate pie, I felt there's a slight difference between being 'happy' and being 'sad.' Dark and sweet chocolate gave me both feelings. 🍫

Now I'm sitting in a beach cafe in Busan, having coffee and writing this letter. It's Monday afternoon now. I wrote the earlier part on Sunday night and was going to send it to you, but I stopped. Now I’m continuing to write again at a cafe on Monday.

About the story I'm developing for my piano album, sometimes I suffer from the story, just like from the piano song I released, like 'Confession of Love.' (Yes, I said ‘I’m okay, but I’m in a depressed mood.)

Song : “Confession of Love”

But it doesn’t mean ‘bad’, or ‘sad’. You could say that I’m enjoying it  in a depressed mood, or that I’m ‘happy’ but also I’m sad. Like dark chocolate: (more) bitter and (less) sweet. 

But I have to continue my journey.

I sometimes suffer emotionally from the music I compose, and I appreciate your comfort from everywhere. But it’s not very helpful to hear ‘I’m here, don’t be lonely.’ I am grateful for that, but nobody can help me, not even my family. I have to manage it by myself. (Sometimes I ‘fight’ with it.) Again, it doesn’t mean I’m alone, or that I’m weak or fragile, either. (I jog and work out at the gym, as you know.)

I know how the story will end. I need to develop the details. But I don’t sit down often to write the story because I have to face the emotions it brings. Sometimes I can’t. So usually, I can sit and write once or twice a week.

So it’s written scene by scene. If I were writing a novel or a scenario for a film, I would need much more time to revise it from beginning to end. (Then it would be more perfect and detailed, but I won’t do it that way.)

Now I’m writing it almost in an improvisational way around the story frame I already set up. Sometimes I would miss something or make a mistake, but I want you to understand how I write. (It’s an effort to release something deep inside my heart after releasing my piano songs.)

I wonder if, after I finish the story and the piano album, I will feel so much relief from the depth of the emotions. Would I feel much lighter than before, like this feeling, having released the 4th track out of the 1( )songs (at least 12, 13 songs)? I doubt it.

But one thing I can promise you: When the story is done, and you read the entire story and listen to the whole album of piano tracks, your emotions will reach a certain status, understanding better what I was trying to deliver with the music and story I create.

When I’m sad for the story, you will feel sad, and when you are happy, I will be happy too. Then we will agree that we’re literally connected. But before that, I need you.💖

Okay. Thank you for reading 🌹

Have a great week.

I will see you next time.

Take care 

Bye 

A.thentic Jong Hee